Life is a maze=0

Ahhhhhhhh Tamil 'O' level is on mondayyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!*Bangs head against wall*I feel reallyreally petrified!!!!!!!Ohmigod I am just so not ready.Not in the sense that I did not study(I studied more than I ever did for Tamil in my entire 15 years 4 months and 30 days of my life).It is just that I don't feel confident and it just seems very fast to me.
All my chinese friends have been studying their heads off for their paper.So have been my indian friends and I but I still feel scared.Zzzzzz well today was a fruitful day though.We had a so-called tamil workshop by my teacher's husband and another guy from Bendemeer Sec.It was really good and I did learn a lot.Hahaha and my teacher brought food for us as well and it was nice=)))
Sigh!!!I feel so tired.I just finished studying by doing one tamil paper.Part of me can't wait for the paper to be over.Part of me wants time to pass slower.Crapppp well,I guess I'll go off now.I want to rest for a little while^^Au Revoir!!!!!!

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

Results.

Eeeeeeeeeeee my results are crappy to the max maybe for the exception of Eng=) Arghhhh!!!!!!!!!'O' levels are coming and I really have to buck uppp.Why is everyone so smart all of a sudden and I am become stupider every second I study harder???Weird huh?Well,that doesn't mean I'm not going to study(unless I decide to commit suicide which is not in my favour) but I guess I'll just start to pay more attention in class.
Hmmmm well,I passed everything(which is like,a must)but I need more distinctions.Ohhhh and tamil 'O' levels are giving me the jitters.(screamscream!!)I am seriously scared....................Gosh I hope I don't forget everything during the day of the paper.*cross fingers*
I guess that's about all.............ehhhhh hahahaha I'm going to have to ponder over what bubbletea flavour Clarence likes.Zzzzzz stupid guy,he doesn't want to tell me =((((( hahahaha nvm I'll choose a really weird flavour and make sure he spits out all of it.(nahhhhhhh jkjkjk)hahaha I'm a gd chooser;P Adios^^

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

bleah.

Yesterday was so funfunfun!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahaha although I almost kinda broke down but in the end,everything turned out fine.I had to make sacrifices,but well,it's something I've always had to do.Hmmm so Gunan came to my hse first then sanjay.We slacked around abit then Shah came.Then we ate.Hahaha we playes uno for awhile and talked some stuff.
Later Gunan and Shah left to watch movie with Muru and Pris.Pavi came later and so there was Pavi,Sanjay and me=)After Pavi ate,she put nail polish for my sis and me on our toenails.They are awesome!!!!!!!!!!She can be a good pedicure artist hahahaha=DDDDD
After that we went to the playground with my bro and sis to play badminton after which we played catching.It was really funnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!hahahaha I had a great time honestly,thanks to Sanjay and Pavi=)Love you guys!!!<3 movie="D
I love all of youu~~~I think this post is very emotional but hahaha who cares,Life is short so just appreciate every1!!!!!!!!^^^^^^Ciao=D

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

shine.

Haizzzz I felt like tearing today's E math paper 2.It was so stupid!!!!I think it was set just to kill me.Pffftttttt.........how annoying?!?so like I'm praying to just PASS all my papers,seriously.I feel like slapping myself right now because I know I'm not going to do well.Zzzzz
Arghhh nevermind,let's talk about happy stuff!!!!!!!Hahahaha Pavi,Shah and I had a great time "bullying" Ram.Hahahaha it was really funnnnn^^It cheered me up.=DDD I gotta admit,Life has been kinda hard for the past few days.Exams aside,there are many more things which have affected me alot.None of it may actually be my fault but they have made me really upset.
There are some incidents which have actually made me glad but the negative ones outweigh all of them.I don't blame people for telling me their problems.I mean, what are friends for anyway?I really do not mind listening to them but I can only go to a certain extent of consoling them.Sometimes,it's all just very tiring.It's like as if it's all my fault.I mean,that's how I feel.
There're certain parts in life where I just felt like giving up because I really couldn't take the pressure.Well,but thanks to this person,I think you know who you are,who told me to keep trusting in Him,I am still here and am able to laugh and joke.Sometimes,I do get angry at Him and think he is not there for me but only later do I realise why He did this.Right now,I'm still waiting for Him to help me out of all this.And I'm sure He will.Bye.

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

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ARHHHHGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!Zzzzzzzzz why today?!?This is so stupid!!!!Of all days it had to be today,during A math paper.Nvm,those who have no idea what I just said,it's alrite=)hahahaha chem paper was out to kill me.Man,chem and I can never get along.It's not my fault,Chem started it!!!
A math paper,I'll pass the paper I guess.Lol!!!!!Oh and yesterday,Pavi,Shah,Ran and Sanjay came to my house to study.Ram and Shah went off early but Pavi and Sanjay stayed.We did study and it did pay off.Hahaha it was nice actually,we could talk and study too.Sanjay is in love with my house now,hahaha=)
But then it made some people unhappy and I do feel bad.I feel like as if it is partially my fault.But it is not like as if I didn't try.Or more like as though we didn't try.Zzzzzz and I hate all this.We were just starting to understand and this had to happen.Arghhhh stupid me stupid me!!!
Sry I'm not in a good mood.Ciao.

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

Posted on 8 May 09 at 8.59 pm

I can't help myself.

Nananana I wanna start a fight!!!!!!!!hahaha lol I was just kidding.I'm like so glad SS paper is over.*phewphew*E math paper 1 was pretty ok BUT I am super MAD that I did not have time to the one question which I knew how to do!!!!!!!!!!Ahhh so sad!!!!!!!I would have felt very smart if I had managed to do it finish.
Zzzzzz nvm it's over,oh and I am so gonna flunk SS.I wrote crap.Mrs haridass is so gonna kill me.Pffffttt!!!Ehhhhh I've really been eating alot these days,thanks to shah and pavi(hahaha jkjk).I've always been a foodie^^hmmmm well other than a few obstacles here and there,life's been GREAT!!!
Hahahahaha I mean,like really.I'm trying to leave the thing that has been bothering me at the back of my mind.I'm trying to forget but unfortunately,God,I am not able to.I really wish I could forget but God,you aren't letting me.Why?But still,I love you and I lay all my trust in youu=)))
I'd better start revising for chemistry.I can't afford to be lazy now,hahahaha and I think I'm still the most relaxed person in class.Though I feel extrememly tired,I am not stressed till I feel likr tearing my hair out.hahaha Ciao;)

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

Posted on 5 May 09 at 6.40 pm