freakin' hatred day

Well, actually it started off quite well. We went to the RSAF airshow which was super cool=D It was the first time I saw this life && it was a great experience. We took a lot of photos too. The unlucky thing was that my slippers tore, literally!!!!!!
I was so damned freaked out, u noe?!? I den put a rubber band around the slippers && my leg. It was seriously damn pain. My dad was like, " You come only give trouble." Walao!!!!!!!! Did I ask for it? Furthermore, I had no sandals. WTF?!? && the blame's always on me. Den after we viewed everything, we went to hougang mall to buy me sandals cos I was seriously having some problem walking=_=! Den everything was normal.
After that we went to Compass Point to borrow books. After we borrowed, we went to Metro to do some shopping for me cos every1 will be going to Batam except me cos I've got to go to school. Then u noe wad? My mum started criticizing my taste in clothes. She said the clothes I pick out were disgusting. Wad the fuck is wrong wif her?!? I swear that the clothes I looked at were perfectly decent. I've got dignity ok? wahhhhhhh..............i seriously hate this freako day. I really do. I was smsing Rama abt all this. Thx for listening yo=) Made me feel btr but sumthing else happened which made me mad again. Haizzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hate it like nvr b4.

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

Saturday is vanathy's lazy day=X

Heya!!!!!!!! Well, thank you Mr Goh && Ms Yue for appreciating all of us and congratulating us. We thought we screwed up but you guys gave us a pat on the back && said good effort. Not to mention Mr Peter Lee as well. All of you teachers really encouraged us even though we made mistakes. To Mr Goh && Ms Yue, we will try not to make you guys angry and to do well for our EOYs=D Also, exams are nearing && I have to either make it or break it. I'm gonna slog out so you'll be seeing less posts && shorter posts.
Today, I finished 1 hw && can you believe the fact that I'm proud of myself for finishing 1 hw?!?=_=! haizzzzz, well, I keep listening to music on my hp && I'm afraid I'm gonna get cancer(touch wood!) soon cos of the infra-red waves=XXX
haha, cheemology much? lol!!!!!!!!!! Well, soon I'll be doing my exams && getting my results. I want to cry but for the fact that I did well. I dun wanna disappoint every1 again. I'll do my best && teach all those show-offs a lesoon=P
haha, that's allio!!!!!!!!!!!!!Adios=))))))))))))))))

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was ACES' Day cum Teachers' Day celebrations. Well, I guess things didn't really work out as we planned. Firstly, the celebration started almost 1 hr later. Secondly, the walk-in was a disaster. I think the emcee's script was different from ours. So, the teachers were not able to walk in the order we arranged them. OK, it wasn't a total disaster. I guess ppl didn't really notice but well, I almost wanted to cry. After that however, things weren't so bad. It went quite smoothly && the EXCO performance worked out well. I was the one who wrote the poem=P Well, then we cleaned up the hall && stuff.
Mr Goh was so funny in the control room. He was so tired that he was yawning@.@!!!!!!!!haha, very cute^^=P Ms Yue told me a Priseilia && me a secret which I'm not gonna tell any1=PPPPPPPP weehoo, it's a gd thingy though. Well, that was all for today, so ciao=)

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

sucky daysssssss

Well, today was the same old same old things. Though I guess I lost my temper quite a number of times today=X I feel bad but I really think that those ppl should think of others too. The bio test was ok lar, can be done but I dun think I can score=( Got back my progress report. Total disappointment=_= I really dunno wad to do. Failed A math only but tis not like my other grades were fantastic or whatsoever. I'm letting down every1 again. *sigh!* Btw, my grp finished debating && I'm glad that I've got that behind my back. Then during assembly, I yelled at the councillors cos they were making a hella of noise. Even Mr Rohan got startled=_=! lol, but I did feel bad but I guess something has to be done before the image of council gets damaged.
Then the Teachers' Day rehearsal was a failure, a bit ok but definately not satisfactory. I really pity Yuhui && Xinhui cos they really put in a lot of effort. Furthermore the irresponsible monitors didn't even turn up! Only one or two did whom I asked to go back cos they will not be able to do anything. Sorry guys=(
I was super tired, u know? Also, some crazy guys, I think one of them is Jisiang, kept calling my name, lol=_=! Nvm, they were bored anyway. Showed my mum the report card && lectures and arguments, u noe the flow. Haizzz..........that's all, bye=)

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

hate it like crazy

Ok, so yea, today was another booooooorringgg day. Summore the Higher Chinese students had prelim so like more than half the class was gone. It was kinda quiet && I was like the only one in my row=( haha, but luckily, James Chew, Sunil && vincent were around me && they never fail to make me laugh.=DDDDDDD Bio was as usual, *yawns!!!!!!* I kept talking to Vincent who nowadays happens to be my bio buddy.haha, lol!!!!!! Then we now have to some bio project && I'm partnering Clarence again, I dun mind, actually. He does do his part && feels bad when he does less than me=_=! Den during Eng I finished my compre, at last!!!!!!!! Den Mr Sunil=P keep bugging me for sth which I dun wanna write here. He also said I suck jus cos I didn't know how to do some rubber band thingy.Lol!!!!!!!!!!
Den during recess I was telling Cheng Woon abt the anonymous person on my cbox && they were saying that they wanna insult he/she back. haha!!!!!!!!! After that was the pretty usual things. Mr Ng taught us A Math (revision). He was quite ok lar actually. Not as bad as I thought he was=X I dun mind him teaching us as long as he doesn't look down on us cos I hate that=S
Den after that was a big drama mama. Not the fact that we made Miss Leow angry(again!) but cos sum1 took Cheng Woon's debate paper. They were real angry, Cheng Woon && Jesslyn I mean. They thought it was Asyraf. Cheng Woon was so angry that she yelled at Clarence=X I asked Asyraf && he said he put it back on her table && asked me to ask Daniel. Den dunno wad happened lar!!!!!!!
Den I got "angry" wif Vincent cos he insulted me. He apologized though but I was kinda disappointed cos I nvr knew he would say that to me=( Nvm, apology accepted=)

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

dunno lol!

Hey today is a pretty normal day. Mr Goh very cute arh!!!!!!!! He come in say wanna have LSP den say sry that he nvr ask us permission. HAHA=DDDDDDD
Den math lesson......wahhhhhhhh............cos our teacher not free den another teacher come. Den he blahblahblah...............den ask us one qn && ask one person come draw. Den one of my classmate say him siao. Den he petty already && walk outta class. Some of my classmates did go && apologize but I heard that he wasn't bothered. Hmph!!!!! Alamak, but she shouldn't have said that also lar. Respect is very important.
HAHA=DDDDDDD Then during chem, we got back our test which I miraculously passed. I'm hogging Vincent for my $1 cos he won me=P He damn funny lor, walao. Say I bully him when actually it's he bully me=P nvm, let the smarter one win! Syafiq also very crazy le. Everything also fuckfuckfuck. Nth better to say ah? haha, jkjk=P He's my number 1 fan=D lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wahhhhhhhhh..............2dae I was seriously pissed off can!!!!!!!!! Some ppl kept insulting me lar!!!!!!!! Insult me once in a while && I dun mind cos I noe u guys are jus playing && dun intend to cause any harm. But if u continuously keep insulting me, I'll get super damned pissed off. WTF is wrong?!? Did I like do anything 2 u? I nvr insulted u for god's sake!!!!!!! If u dun like me den say lar!!!!!
Like some fucker like that sia!!!!!!!! Sry abt the language=X Den there's this anonymous person hu keeps insulting me in my cbox && I dunno wad the fuckin' hell I did to this person. I nvr ever said I was pretty && neither do I think I'm pretty. So jus stop disturbing me && get a life, ok?

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

Life goes on

Haizzz!!!!!!!!! Today was a loooong day but not that long.lol=P Well, instead of moving monday we had 2 surveys to do since I'm a councillor && cca leader=_=!
It was really very annoying especially when ppl kept asking me the same question after even after Mr Lee announced. I mean, why can't they like at least spare a few minutes to listen instead of talking to their friends. It just makes life harder for the councillors. I basically kept repeating myself countless number of times to countless number of people. Man..........I seriously felt like screaming >(. Well, luckily I am cool-tempered and didn't tell anyone off. In a way, they can't be blamed cos they were most probably bored outta their souls and feeling restless. What do to? See the pathetic life of a councillor?!
Well, after that was P.E. I did my shuttle run && sit-and-reach. I got B for both so I guess it was ok. 11.6 sec && 40 cm. Quite an achievement from last year so I deserve a pat on the back=P After that was the usual lessons, blahblahblah.......
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! I seriously need to go on a diet!!!!!! I'm so fat!!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!!!
I nidda lose all those disgusting fats of mine=!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh no oh no!!!!!!
I'M SO FATTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
First goal: LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'VE BEEN EATING LIKE A PIG=(((((((((
Sigh!!!!!!!! Bio was ok lar. haha, I was bullying Vincent=P well, it's his fault!!!!!
He was telling me he got 91 for A math when I got some miserly mark. Den he acted like he was crying. KUKU!!!!!!!!!!!!!=PPPPPPPPPPP He thought I didn't listen to what he said but I did! HELLO VINCENT!!!!!!!!!!!! IF U HAPPEN TO READ THIS, I LISTENED!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok?lol=P
Well, EXCO meeting && blahs so pretty much lame. New math teacher, Miss Chang was ok, a bit boring but still ok=) ok. Ciao=D

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

wherever whenever whatever

Heartbroken now. I can't believe it && I dun want to but it's true. You've said it && it's made my heart shatter. U said it unintentionally cos u didn't know && u are not to blame. It's my fault that I fell for you && I guess I'll just wait and see. Hate it when I fall for u but I can't leave it cos it wouldn't leave me.
Well, exams are nearing. There's like only 4 wks more to end-of-year exams. I'd better start revising. I've already flunked 3 A math tests consecutively. It's like I'm vying for the guiness book of world records for failing the most A math tests. OMG!!! I really gotta buck up but I know that I studied. It's not like I studied last minute or whatsoever. I really put in a lot of effort. I know I did. I just don't noe why but I fail repeatedly no matter how hard I try.
Oh yea. Yesterday was Ms see's last day. I feel so sad=(((((((( She is a very good math teacher, honest. She cares for us. Although she gives us way too much homework, it's all for our own good. At least she is understanding && she does extend deadlines. She is a very nice teacher who believes that having only knowledge is not useful but having knowledge alongside character is the most useful. I agree. Sometimes, knowledge is not everything. I'm sure no one wants to end up being a jerk or a snob. I really will miss Ms See && I'm afraid of what will happen to my A math grades which are already drowning. Ms See is very nice cos she believes in us. She gives us encouragement and does not ask us to drop A math even if we flunk it. She says that she will help us and make sure that we pass. I really love her && I hope for a safe delivery . May god bless you=)

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

I am a failure

I suck!!!!!!!! Seriously, I am 100% sure I'll fail my A math. Make that 120%. I didn't have time. Obviously, I am a total fuckin' idiot! Do excuse my language for this post cos I really nidda let out my feelings. I feel so dumb. I let down every single soul, everyone. I failed miserably. I told my mum && she scolded me. I am crying now because it is not her fault. I've disappointed her too many times to count. She is most probably feeling ashamed of me because she is a mathe teacher and I am failing my A math. God, I'm so sorry. My mum should never be to blame. She did what she is supposed to do. I let her down again. Is this how I have to live? I seriously studied. I studied more for this test and I had high aims. Everything's been shattered. Everything. I feel like ending my life right now, leaving everything behind cos I've let people down more times than ever. Although I shouldn't, I feel I ought to do that even though I can't bring myself to do it. I dunno how many are gonna read this post and freak out but I dun think I can ever bring myself to do that. My life might be equal to a rubbish dump but I can't jus leave it all behing and do nothing about it. Sometimes I feel that it's because of me that my siblings have to suffer cos I'm not setting a good example. Sometimes I feel that I cause all the conflicts in my family. Sometimes I just feel that I'm not worthy to be here. Sometimes, I just want to leave it all behind. Well, thanks to those who cared about me today. Namely Jahnavi, Magdalene, Yichan, Liying, Agnes and Vincent. Perhaps you guys might think that I do not appreciate what you guys did but I really really do. Thanks a lot guys. May my life be better, God.

With loads of hugs and kisses,
vanathy

I dunno

Life is as sucky as ever. I failed my chem. Actually, i jus had the test 2dae but I'm 100% sure I'll flunk it. I alr calculated that I lost at least 15 marks. Aiya, phy SPA oso sure fail. I dun even noe if my units are correct and my gradient is totally out. Everything is wrong and I'm dead. Yesterday was my sis and asyraf's b'day. Well, a happy belated birthday to asyraf since I didn't wish him. We celebrated my sis'b'day wif a cake and I gave her my presents. U noe sumthing? I studied for geog and bio for absolutely no reason cos they both got postponed. How irritating???????????? Though I['m glad in a way. well, that's all!!!!!!!!!!Bye=)

With loads of hugs and kisses,
vanathy

over and out

Heya=) national camp is over and I'm feeling damn sad. I really really miss all the fun I had and the friends I made. My group, Horny, rulez!!!!!!!!!!wahahaha!!!!!!!! Luv u guys=) The instructors were great too!!!!!!! Chris, Jia hui and Javier were totally awesome! Jia hui was the one who always got bullied by Xiao wei, celeste, siti and me=P And those 3 girls, u ppl rock my freakin' world like crazy. I'm really gonna miss those four days and three nights. Wish I could turn back the time but it isn't possible. I hope we can all meet up together one day and may god bless u guys.

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy

vanathy + life = complicated

Heya=) Well, today was cross-country and I finished a lousy 17th. Last year I was 10th. Arghh!!!!!!!!!!! Well, Not really my fault cos for the past 2 wks I was very busy n not feeling very well. At least I did my best=D I almost vomited, I dunno why. I think I exerted myself too much. I've to thank Doreen 4 running wif me. She was like an encouragement for me XD I'm home now and basically pigging out. Arghh!!!!! Hate it when cravings come in=(
So far my life has been taking on different roads, usually unexpected turns. I failed 2 A math tests and I really wanna do better, for me and my parents. My dad bought me a new phone and I really have to do well in my studies so that they will not be disappointed. I really really have to do my best and more.
Although I've gone through a lot, I follow my motto which is to never give up. If you do, you will never succeed in life. I've made many mistakes, many of which have cost me very dearly. I was very naive and I still am a bit. No matter what, I will have to stay positive and do what I have to do. People may hate me for what I do, but if it is my duty, I will do it, like it or not. Life is never easy and I should be thankful that I live in a comfortable house, have many friends and food to eat. I should never complain about hardship cos I've never experienced it.
I'll be going for a 4-day 3-night camp at Pulau Ubin. I'm looking forward to it. It is a National Camp and it involves all UGs. Cal, Kelvin and Xin hui are oso going. 2mrw is NDP celebration and I'm praying for good weather. I'll be in the Guard-of-Honour parade and to be honest, it's easier than being in the contingent=X haha, well, wish me luck and adios!!!!!!!!!!!

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy=D