repetition of failure.

There you go.I've officially screwed physics like never before.I know that I'm gonna lose a hell lotta marks.I'm still being stunned wheras the other guys seem to be smiling && the girls were complaining but they complain for every paper so no difference=_=' So,yea I'm becoming a failure once again although I know that people will think I'm nuts cos I haven't gotten back my results && I'm already ranting that I failed.Well,ever heard of intuition?Yea,so I'm so gonna fail this paper && looks like I gotta forgo some stuff as well.
I've always asked god and I'm asking again,why is it that while everyone seems to be moving one step forward while I'm moving three steps backward?Did you want it to be this way?I really hope not because I will not be able to take it any longer. Everything seems to be so far away but why do the rest seem to be able to take it so easily,like as if it was a small matter?Why do I keep struggling and shedding tears while the rest sit back,relax and smile?
Idk the answers god.I hope you could tell me one day && I really hope it's soon.I know that I tried so hrad but everything just seems to go to waste.It's no longer the same life I had but instead,it's a life with stones sticking out everywhere with cliffs and vines.Why?Maybe I ask too many questions or maybe I'm just demanding but god,I really want to know.
Well,sooner or later I'll be posting a letter to you god && maybe you could just take a look at it.It may be full of crap && demands but to me,they're just dreams and hopes so god,maybe you could fulfil some of it.To everyone reading this,if it seems a bit weird in like some kinda third-dimension kinda thing,it's not.They are just my thoughts && it's not a religion thing.I'm referring to god as a general term which all of us use or at least,most of us.That's the end.Adios.

With loads of hugs and kisses,
Vanathy